The Romance of Bringing up my Baby Boy

I don’t know if most new, and especially first time mothers, will agree with me when I say that bringing up a little one can be a romantic adventure. Between the endless feeds, sleepless nights and clothes that smell of milk all the time, it is sometimes hard to see even the logic of having a baby, forget the romance. But I am asking you here to take a leap of faith with me and perhaps stretch the definition of romance just a little bit. After all what is romance if not a feeling of insurmountable love for another person?

And that is what we mothers feel for our little one. I know that every smile, every cry, every little coo and ga that my boy makes, means the world to me and there are times when I love him so much that it makes my heart ache. As the weeks pass and I see him beginning to recognize me, the pleasure that brings is unlike anything else. Just as we yearn for the attention from our lover or husband, his little indication that I am special can make even the toughest day go easy.

Motherhood means long sleepless nights and often a lot of fatigue. But to me it also means a time for special bonding with my baby. There are times when, as I change him, he will suddenly grab my finger and give me a little coo and a smile, almost like sharing a little secret with me. It is like a promise that he is mine in a way that he can never belong to anyone else.

I love to watch him sleep just so that I can be next to him and never miss a moment of his precious life. And much like all of us remember the exact moment in time when we first met that special someone who changed our lives, I just have to close my eyes to see his yelling, startled face as he came into this world. He was swollen, covered in goop but he was beautiful in my eyes.

And as we do our special version of the waltz every night to the Mozart humming softly from the crib-mobile, I look forward to the day when he can take me dancing. It maybe his wedding day and the reigning queen of his heart maybe another lady, but he will know that I was the first woman who loved him unconditionally and truly forever.